Day 108 of 365 Days of Being Thankful
Today I am thankful for my skin care doctor. I had to go for a full body scan and she is completely professional. She makes me feel at ease even with her checking every inch of my body.
I am good to go for now. They give you a plastic and paper sheet to cover you. It barely fit around my body, just barely with nothing to spare!! Too little a cover and too much girl to cover! Once you are a cancer patient, you have to get checked by every type of doctor. I am glad that some people are so knowledgeable in their fields. When i am with some of my doctors, I think, gee, they must have so much knowledge in their heads. And they have to analyze situations based on symptoms and medical tests. That is a huge responsibility!
.When I was a kid, my mother never took me to the doctors, never. She would even fill out my forms and sign a name. She was a nurse so she thought she knew everything. She would bring home meds from the places she worked and treat us herself. Sometimes the dates on the medicines were long past expired. Needless to say, we rarely told her if we were sick. When I was a kid, I thought all mothers were like that. When I would go into my friend's homes and their mothers were nice and caring, I just found it strange, thinking they were putting on a fake show for me like my mother did. When I went to high school, my close friend's mother was an alcoholic so I just figured everyone had their issues! As I got older, I realized my mother had narcissistic personality disorder.
It is very sad to grow up with a mother like that. At least she showed me what kind of mother NOT to be. I don't understand how people who are abused mentally, emotionally, sexually, or physically could ever repeat the abuse they suffered because they know exactly how painful it is to live through, especially as a child. I am so very thankful that I had a wonderful dad.
I found this definition on Wikipedia.
Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder with a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by exaggerated feelings of self-importance, an excessive need for admiration, and a lack of empathy.People affected by it often spend a lot of time thinking about achieving power or success, or about their appearance. They often take advantage of the people around them.
When I start trying to think about things deeply, I think........are mentally ill people responsible for their behavior? Can they help it? Does God forgive them even if they don't ask for forgiveness? Do they deserve to be forgiven? Does everyone deserve forgiveness in this life? I know that Jesus died for our sins but are mentally ill people forgiven automatically if they don't know they sinned or if they are acting self-absorbed? Whenever I have a chance to fight(verbally) or flight, I choose flight. I never get into confrontations with anyone, I just back away from them. I think that everyone sees things from their own point of view so I don't think confrontations make any sense. I guess that is why there are so many therapists in the world, people need a place to vent.
UPDATE on Too Tall Bunny: he is know known as one foot bunny!
I am also thankful for tootsie roll pops, especially the caramel ones and the chocolate ones.
My sister loves the chocolate ones. She buys bags of tootsie roll pops and throws away all the other flavors except for the chocolate and orange. I found a few bags of choclate pops around Halloween and saved them. They are only 60 calories per pop! I gave my sister my last chocolate bag for her birthday last month. Is that love or what?? She was so excited, she told me that she hid them and ate them sparingly.
They are very hard to find and usually only are available around Halloween. Today Dan and I went to Big Lots and they had LOTS of the Caramel Tootsie Roll bags. I bought 10 bags. There were no chocolate bags.
I am good to go for now. They give you a plastic and paper sheet to cover you. It barely fit around my body, just barely with nothing to spare!! Too little a cover and too much girl to cover! Once you are a cancer patient, you have to get checked by every type of doctor. I am glad that some people are so knowledgeable in their fields. When i am with some of my doctors, I think, gee, they must have so much knowledge in their heads. And they have to analyze situations based on symptoms and medical tests. That is a huge responsibility!
.When I was a kid, my mother never took me to the doctors, never. She would even fill out my forms and sign a name. She was a nurse so she thought she knew everything. She would bring home meds from the places she worked and treat us herself. Sometimes the dates on the medicines were long past expired. Needless to say, we rarely told her if we were sick. When I was a kid, I thought all mothers were like that. When I would go into my friend's homes and their mothers were nice and caring, I just found it strange, thinking they were putting on a fake show for me like my mother did. When I went to high school, my close friend's mother was an alcoholic so I just figured everyone had their issues! As I got older, I realized my mother had narcissistic personality disorder.
I found this definition on Wikipedia.
Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder with a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by exaggerated feelings of self-importance, an excessive need for admiration, and a lack of empathy.People affected by it often spend a lot of time thinking about achieving power or success, or about their appearance. They often take advantage of the people around them.
When I start trying to think about things deeply, I think........are mentally ill people responsible for their behavior? Can they help it? Does God forgive them even if they don't ask for forgiveness? Do they deserve to be forgiven? Does everyone deserve forgiveness in this life? I know that Jesus died for our sins but are mentally ill people forgiven automatically if they don't know they sinned or if they are acting self-absorbed? Whenever I have a chance to fight(verbally) or flight, I choose flight. I never get into confrontations with anyone, I just back away from them. I think that everyone sees things from their own point of view so I don't think confrontations make any sense. I guess that is why there are so many therapists in the world, people need a place to vent.
UPDATE on Too Tall Bunny: he is know known as one foot bunny!
I am also thankful for tootsie roll pops, especially the caramel ones and the chocolate ones.
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