Day 38 of 365 Days of Being Thankful

        

   Last night I went to my bereaved parent's meeting.  I hadn't been there for awhile but I knew a psychic was scheduled for last night. Olivia wanted to come with me to see what a psychic reading was like. I am grateful that Olivia came with me. And I am always grateful to be with other bereaved parents because we all share an unbreakable and unspoken bond. No one wants to know how it feels to lose a child.  I think a lot of "psychics" are full of nonsense. People try to make things fit when they give a date or a number or a color or something like that.  There were probably about 20 people at the meeting.  When we got there, my friend Carol said Hi Colleen and Hi Olivia!   

The psychic says "I have been hearing the name Olivia all day long."  DUH, it's the most common female name. You can't go wrong with the names Olivia or Michael or John, Joe. Then she starts to read Olivia and I. Everyone at the meeting knows that I am totally skeptical of this stuff.  She said that Amy felt connected to Olivia even though they had never met in person.  Olivia said she always wanted to feel more connected to Amy and that gave Olivia a good feeling even though she was crying. The psychic said that Amy feels a soul sister connection to Olivia.  It made Olivia both happy and sad.

           How can anyone validate that? She also said that she heard the song "Praying" by Kesha.  Olivia said that she never told me but whenever she hears the song, she thinks of Amy and sings the song to AMy when she is driving in the car. Then the psychic Mandy said that she was feeling things going on in the stomach area and trouble breathing.  That works for Ay and the trouble breathing also works for Olivia, she had pulmonary emboli after a spinal fusion. Most people do have trouble breathing when they are dying. She also said there's another one, and I said no, there are two more girls.  And my friends kept saying, AMy meant another adopted sister.  Then the psychic kept saying Amy was showing her the number 17 and I said no, AMy died at 18.  Olivia is 20 and Olya is 19. My friend Priscilla said that Amy will be gone 17 years this May.  Knowing Amy, she would have said 16, she hasn't reached 17 years in death yet. The psychic could have said 16(Amy died 16 years ago), 18(Amy's age when she died), 19(Olya's age now), or 20(Olivia's age now). She could have said 9(Olivia's age at adoption), or 10(Olya's age at adoption).  Amy died on may 25th so she could have said 5 or 25.  Amy's birthday is June 2 so she could have said 6 or 2. Olya's birthday is also June 2. So there were lots of numbers that could have worked had she guessed right. She said  that Olivia was having a medical issue, that was obvious by looking at her.  She said it was neurological, and that is true, but again, easy to see by looking at her. And she said that Amy was protecting Olivia with her white light. Why didn't my father or mother -in -law protect Amy with their white light? She also said something was going on with the right side of Olivia's brain and she sees another surgery coming up. Not one doctor thinks Olivia's condition has anything to do with something in her brain.

The psychic's name is Mandy Tokolics if anyone wants to contact her for a reading.

       So to me, I didn't have a real reading. Why didn't Amy talk about her love of horses?? Or PSU?? I don't get it. My friend Kathy, sitting next to me, thought it was all crap.  But my friend  Marianne thinks the psychic was connecting to Amy. I don't think it was a good reading, but I never want to pass up an opportunity to connect with Amy. I think that by the time we die, it won't matter if we believed in psychics or not. If I get to see Amy again when I die, I won't care about whether or not psychics are real. I wish I totally believed in them but I don't.  Olivia totally believed everything that Mandy said, not sure if that is a good or bad thing.